failure makes you stronger

ok,fine...i always complain a lot bout how sucks my life is.(which actually its true).i gonna tell my bright side of life (which again not more than 40%)...i began to fall since form 4...in studies n life..i used to be one of the 'budak pandai" in class..before i fall so badly,i'm a very competitive students especially in academics..i can study the whole 2 months before exams and axceel in my class project..teachers also called me the next 'pakar sejarah' since i can hafal the whole sejarah from form 1 to form 3 and tell it to my other classmates without looking at the book or notes..i dunno how i can do that..i'm amazed with my sejarah ability too..in sports,i'm very good in lompat jauh and lontar lembing n peluru.i even in the top 10 runner for acara merentas desa(ps..i dun take shortcut)..when i flash back through all my memories well i came across to think that hey Joy,u are not a total failure,u are once a star student..thats makes me think i'm really that stupid..i just need my motivation and strength back to be on top..

EMPTY

it's been a while sice i posted any posts..so here it is..my life feels empty and suck for now..i'm struggling to death in the battle of study n i can't stop now..there's no turning back..

SOMEDAY...

SOME PEOPLE DREAM HIGH OF THEIR FUTURE..I MEAN WHO DONT DO THAT..EVERYONE HAVE THEIR OWN DREAM FUTURE OF THEIR OWN..OK,FIRST MINE LOOK BLURRY UNTIL NOW..EVENTHOUGH I'M STUDYING PSYCHOLOGY I STILL NOT CONVINCE ENOUGH WHETHER I CAN DO IT OR NOT..BUT AS I CAN SAY ITS ALL ABOUT CHALLENGE..

I KNOW HE IS CUTE,BUT HE'S MINE

SAY LA WAT U WAN TO SAY PEOPLE..HE'S TOO CUTE KE,HE WILL NEVER BE YOURS OR GUY LIKE HIM USUALLY GO FOR MODELS..I DUN CARE ..HE IS MY SUPER JUNIOR LEE DONGHAE N I WILL LOVE HIM UNTIL THE DAY HE GOT MARRIED WIT SOME GIRL THEN ONLY I WILL STOP LIKING HIM..HAHHAH,BUT NOT NOW...MUAHAHAH!! DONGHAE YAH....!!SARANGHAEYO!!GO SUPER JUNIOR

JUSTBE GRATEFUL

since i always whine about my life in college..many assignments n stressed this and that...i think i less talking about my life..becoz its just the same everyday..wat can i say..no matter wat it is,we should be grateful wit our lives becoz not everyone are as lucky as we r..countries like africa,afghanistan.people tere suffer like hell n only god knows how painful their life is..no food and shelter..we hav our own home n food(we can eat whatever we want)..so be grateful for wat we hav eventhough we always seem to feel imcomplete but yeah be grateful..
okay,i still wanted to talk about college life,sorry la i have to spill it out..hahaha!!yesterday in class,we foud like many little folded paper which we thought was sampah n my korean fren,lee kwan sung was coomplaining that they have no manners throwing rubbish evrywhere..it turns out to be little diary from frustrated girl..we think so is a SHE..she complain that her boyfren did not pay attention to her n always busy wit work n studies..i mean it suppose to be a good thing wat..that the guy concentrate on goin success in life rather than berkepit 24 hours n jeles here n there..we think that this girl got mental issues n doesnt know how appreciate people around her..this girl seriuosly crazy n need psychology class...

LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL

LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL WHEN YOU GET TO IT...ESPECIALLY FAMILY'S LOVE..IT IS THE STRONGEST LOVE BOND IN THE WORLD N NOTHING CAN FIGHT THE POWER OF FMILY LOVE EVEN COUPLE LOVE..ALWAYS REMEMBER UR FAMILY BECAUSE NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU BEHIND..

i'm ok...

Yeah,i know..my title sound so weird this time as if i'm gonna die or something..well guess wat..i am DYING now..not physically but mentally dying...i thought short sem gonna be a little loose than the long sem..but it turns out the opposite way..IT SUCKS LIKE HELL MAN!!!SHIT!!!(cant curse a lot here)..my DEAR lecturer juz drop a gigantic nuclear bom on our head..BOOM!!! assignments here they come..omg,4 pages of cultural anthropology reports..i dun even understand the question..but like others said...its a challenge 4 some of them..(the one yg semangat nak buat keje)..for me 'im officially dying n need a lawyer to write my will or i juz post it on facebook status..its easier anyway..everyone can read it..but no matter how hard it is,i 'm not gonna stop..cozi have wasted a year changing courses n that not gonna happen again..in the end i juz pray 4 myself..HELP ME GOD!!

yehaa!!! i'm back!!

Heyy!!i'm back in blogspot AGAIN..since nobody reads my blog in tumblr nsab said that my last post in blogspot is still about santa claus..so yeah..i decided to be here again..hahah..its been 4 days since i recovered from my influenza(fever,bad cold,sore throat)..its like all the disease came to me at once..the first i got my really bad cold is on the day of the final exam..only god knows how suffer i was during the exam..with no sleep the whole night,i totally lost all my concentration..n i feel that the words r dancing..(maybe i was too dizzy)...now,oh hell yeah!!i'm free from any penyakit berjangkit..hahahaa!!!i hav for about a month for holiday before my next sem..oh ya,to sab my dear tenuk president.I'M IN LOVE WITH HAN....

santa claus is comin to town...

ITS CHRISTMAS EVE N I DUN REALLY FEEL LIKE CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS MAYBE BECOZ THERE ARE TOO MANY THINGS GOIN ON IN MY MIND RIGHT NOW...COLLEGE STUFF,FINANCIAL N WORK...CHRISTMAS USED TO BE ONE OF THE BEST FESTIVE OF THE YEAR..EVERY YEAR I CANT WAIT TO CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS MAYBE BECOZ OF THE PRESENTS...HAHA...BUT AS TIME GOES BY LIFE SEEMS TO BE MORE SUCKER THN IT IS....WHY?? SO MANY THINGS CHANGES IN MY LIFE UNTIL I FELT LIKE LIFE IS MEANINGLESS TO ME..ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW IT IS..

YAY!!!

Finally,i've made up my mind after all obstacles that i've been through..i finally decided to go on with PSYCHOLOGY,somehow i realised no matter how hard i tried to forget bout my dream,it keep trying to come back to me...somep people said i'm like to change my mind but they never understand how hard it is to achieve our dream.life can be unfair sometimes to us.but take it as part of God test to us..i'm so happy that i can start a very new life n also new frens....now i know how cruel people can be..i'm wuite dissapointed with my college frens coz none of them have ever called or even bother bout me..since thay r so busy with whopping n expensive restaurant they wanna go..so wat the hell...i'm better off without them..actually i feel happier this way..i dun know why..my old classmates r much fun then them..rich people always like that..they only know how to waste money without even know how hard it is to earn money...

YEAH!!!!

FINALLY,I DECIDED TO GO ON WITH PSYCHOLOGY..FEUWW,WAT A RELIEVE...AFTER FOR SO LONG THE QUESTION MARK BUGGING ME BOUT MY FUTURE. I'VE ALREADY MADE UP MY MIND N NO ONE CAN EVER CHANGE IT..I DUN CARE WAT PEOPLE SAID BOUT PSYCHOLOGY,MEETING CRAZY PEOPLE OR HOW IT CAN DRIVE U CRAZY..N U KNOW WAT I DUN CARE..AS LONG ITS UR GREATEST PASSION WE CAN ALWAYS DO THE BEST N ACHIEVE GREATNESS IN LIFE....HALELUYAH!!!

WHAT THE FUTURE LOOKS LIKE TO ME

I'M GETTING CONFUSED WITH MY AMBITION RIGHT NOW..U KNOW LIFE ISN'T GOIN JUZ THE WAY WE WANTED SOMETIME...I HAVE TO CRUSHED MY DREAM TO BE A CLINICAL PSYCHIATRIST DUE TO SOME PROBLEMS...I AM SO DISSAPOINTED..THEN,ONE DAY MY MOM ASKED ME WAT R U GOIN TO BE..?I WAS STUNNED WHEN I HEARD THAT FROM MY MOM..SHE IS RIGHT..WAT AM I DOIN..I'M TAKIN COURSES WHICH R REALLY TOUGH N OUT OF MY ABILITY...I DUN EVEN KNOW WAT I'M GOIN TO BE..ITS LIKE I HAVE NO AMBITION...JUZ GO WITH THE FLOW..DAMN IT...SOMETIME,I WISH WE CAN TURN BACK TIME..

TIRING

TIRED,TIRED,TIRED..THESE FEW WEEK HAVE BEEN A HECTIC WEEK OR SHOULD I SAY KILLER WEEK..UNFINISHED ASSIGNMENTS,COURSEWORK N STUDIES...AHHHRGH!!!! SO TENSIONLA..COLLEGE CAN BE VERY TOUGH TOO N IF U DUN LEARN HOW TO MANAGE UR TIME..TRUST ME U WILL BE SO 'DEAD'...I'M SURE THE LECTURERS ARE HAVING FUN BY GIVING US A LOT OF WORKS...SABAR JELA..

FRIENDS FOREVER

fRIENDS ARE THE RIGHT PERSON F US TO SHARE OUR BURDEN TOGETHER BESIDES PARTNER...TRUE FRIEND R HARD TO FIND.EVER SINCE I STEPPED IN TO COLLEGE LIFE.EVERYTHING IS TOTALLY DIFFRENT.PEOPLE R NOT WAT WE EXPECTED..THERE R SO MANY KINDS OF PEOPLE WE CAN C,THOSE WHOM LIKE TO PARTY,STUDY,TALK N OR CLUBBING EVEN DRUNKERS..I JUZ REALIZE HOW BIG THE WORLD R ..BACK IN SCHOOL WE CAN PLAY WIT EVERYONE OR HANG OUT WIT THEM BECOZ THEY R THE ONLY PEOPLE WE KNOW.OUT THERE ITS NOT THE SAME..NOT EVERYONE R FRIENDLY.BUT THANK GOD,I HAV FRIENDS WHOM R VERY GOOD TO ME N EASY GOING..GOD BLESS THEM ALL...

CONFUSED

SOMETIMES,I GOT CONFUSED WIT MY AMBITION..WAT DO I REALLY WANTED TO DO?IS THIS WAT I WANTED TO BE OR DO?SINCE I'M IN THE FOUNDATION COURSE NOW,I HELD IT BACK UNTIL I GRADUATED FROM FOUNDATION...STILL,THE QUESTION MARK STILL COME ACROSS MY MIND...I NEED A PROFESSION THAT IS VERY STABLE SO I CAN HELP TO OVERCOME MY FAMILY SITUATION SINCE I'M THE ELDEST..BEING AN ELDEST MEMBER IN THE FAMILY REALLY GIVES U A HEAVY BURDEN SOMETIMES.WE CANT LEAVE THEM WHENEVER WE WANT BECOZ OF RESPONSIBILITY..WATever it is let us leave this matter to GOD to decide...

NEW LIFE NEW FRIEND NEW CAMPUS NEW STORY

I started my new life int he beginning of september..i finally transfer to SEGI university college..sucks huh??pusing2 satu KL last2 masuk segi..still,wateverla..i got dissapointed 4 two times in my previous studies in U..first,i cant do psychology because my father **** second i already started my law in MSU n again it failed because of HIM...(fell like cursing right now)..so much happened in my life till i reached the point where i dont want to study anymore..thank go give me a way in life which is FOUNDATION IN COMMERCE..never thought i would do that course since my maths is super super duper freaking suck..i never pass my add math pown..ceyh!!but i'll give it a try..who knows i can work in BANK NEGARA(kononnya)...hehehehe...sapela tau..but its okay i'll tahan 4 one year before i can finally decide what i wanted to do..segi so far is okay than i thought..gow new friendly fren n old ones oso...aja aja fighting to me lo...!!!!

LIFE HAS its ups and downs....

so far college life hasn't killed me yet...bridging class sucks n OMG,i couldnt stand the crititical thinking class man..its like a burning place in there..wtf?!!!WHY DO WE HAV TO GO 4 SIVIK CLASSES 4 3 WEEKS..dun u think its a waste of time..??i mean,1 or 2 weeks is negotiable but 3??i feel like i havent got anything that is related to my course which i suppose to take??DAMN..!!btw,my ID card tak siap lagi...%^&*$#@!!!!!shit man dah lebih sebulan tak siap lagi koang proses plastik dulu ke baru nak wat..dahlah everything using class system...mcmane nak log in kalo takde matrix card...bongok tul!!!!

FINAL COUNTDOWN

finally,i've made up my mind...tut..tut..tut...hahaha....!!at last...yay!!i decided to go on with foundation in law...i mean wat u got to lose??i'll give it a try..we never knew wat goin to happen in the future..life isn't goin the way we wanted to sometime..then,i'll continue my bachelor year in psychology...who says law can't adapt psychology??sometime we need to think that maybe god provide us a better way in our life...i started to accept everything with all my heart...n maybe someday i will succeed juz like everyone else with no regrets...xoxo

@#$%&*$%!!!!!

i'm sure u guys mesti pelik kan wit the title....dun ask the meaning coz u know wat it is....tut..tutt....my orientation week in MSU juz ended n it was a great relieved....feuwww...penat nak mampos dahla jln kat shah alam tu slalu jam..pagi2 buta pown jam,pelik tul...bersemangat sgt ke org nak g keje?bongok!! my seniors of coz suck n F***.....aku tau le korang dah tua bangka,takyahla nak suruh bwat keje2 bodo..org dtg kat sne nak blaja bukan bwat tarian zapin ngan bollywood...wtf?!!tomorrow i gonna start my bridging class.hope the lecturer is ok...i'll try my best to carry foundation in LAW subjects since it requires a lot(berjuta-juta) of readings..aku bukan rajin sgt pown nak membaca..baca buku sejarah pown mcm telan racun ape lg...buku law...shit man!!then,terdetikla hati aku utk tau whether this is the best decision 4 my future or not..i hav doubts 4 my decision..pressure from all around me is killing me...i wanted to do something that i really hav great passion on...i dun want to waste my life 4 nothing....

LIFE AFTER NS

I'M BACK FINALLY AFTER 2 TORCHERING MONTHS....LIFE IN MY CAMP IS SUCK....IT IS WORST THAN SCHOOL N THEY TRAINED US EXACTLY LIKE ARMY...TIGHT DISCIPLINE RULES,MARCHING,N TOUGH PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES....*SIGH* FINALLY ITS OVER..I'VE BEEN DOIN A LOT OF THINKING DURING NS TIME..WHERE SHOULD I GO AFTER THIS..?AM I DOIN THE RIGHT DECISION?IS THIS THE RIGHT ROAD TO MY LIFE?EVERYTHING RUNNING OVER MY HEAD THIS PAST FEW MONTHS..I DID FEEL A LITTLE BIT SAD COZ LEAVIN ALL MY GOOD FRENZ THERE...BUT LIFE HAS TO GO ON RIGHT?BESIDES,M LIFE IN NS IS UNBEARABLE ESPECIALLY WHEN U IN COMPANY KESATRIA(THE BEST COMPANY OF ALL)..U CAN'T DO ANY MISTAKES,U HAV TO CORPORATE WITH ONE ANOTHER EVENTHOUGH U HATE THEM,U WILL GET SCOLDED 4 NO REASON N ALL TEACHERS ESPECIALLY GIRLS WILL ATTACKED U 4 NO REASON N ACCUSED U 4 OIN SOMETHIN WRONG WHICH WE NVR DO ANYTHING WRONG..THE PRESSURE IS REALLY KILLNG ME N I FEEL NAK BUNUH DIRI JE KEKADANG...NASIB AKU TAK TERJUN KAT KOLAM KEM..IKUT ATI MMG NAK..HUHU...ANYWWAY,I'LL LIVE MY LIFE HAPPILY FROM NOW ON...TADAA!!!